Here I am, writing my first blog post, with no idea where it will end up. My head is so full of thoughts, ideas, reactions to this life I lead and they sit in my mind with nowhere to go. Now perhaps there is a place to record those thoughts - and then perhaps one day, my children might have an insight to the adult mother they would not have understood in their youth.
Right now I am thinking of an opportunity I have decided not to pursue. The torment of choosing between a BIG career versus a relaxed mom seems to creep up on me at intermittent times. The idea of establishing myself further in the working world is so tempting - but I know in my heart of hearts, the person I will become will be distant from the people in my life who I love so much and who mean so much to me. Perhaps oneday I may be plagued with "What -if?" and the speculation of what could have been, but I know one thing and that is that I can rest in His Grace and His love. You see, I know that I am loved - and He is with me always - no matter what. How do I know this - because I have experienced it over and over again.